Sunday, January 10, 2010

Of life and love...

My life is pretty much messed up beyond repair at the moment. I feel like I've been caught in some kind of bizarre parallel universe with a different version of myself. I haven't been alone in so long... I forgot how to do it. I did it for myself I guess, and I'm sure it was the right decision. I have a lot that I need to face alone for once, and I'm hoping I will be a better person for it in the end. Right now I just feel like a mess. I basically missed half of the first week of classes; I was lost in my thoughts and other things. I'm so anxious. Escapism has become my best friend again.

But enough of my cryptic ramblings about my silly personal life, I promised pictures from TAO! It was fantastic by the way, and a very different experience. I never expect to actually enjoy huge crowds of people, but somehow their drug induced genuineness made me feel welcome and comfortable to the point where I could just shed the anxiety and lose myself in the moment. So without further adieu, TAO:

Yayay! I absolutely adored how my cyberlox turned out. I ended up adding some awesome UV reactive silicone tubing, as well as some foam strips with little blue stars and some rivets. They were super easy to make and surprisingly comfortable. I hope to get a lot more use out of them in the near future. Something tells me that the inhabitants of Isla Vista won't thoroughly appreciate the creativity.... Bah!

1 comment:

Les said...

You will figure it out, Deirdre. You are incredibly strong and independent, and certainly capable of getting through this. Keep your chin up, your priorities straight, and remember why you made the decision.